| I figure at least one more entry is necessary to start the end of
this magnificent summer. I have mixed feelings on the the whole thing.
In one aspect, this summer is over, gone, i wont be able to have my
friends like this anymore and Im going to have to say goodbye for a bit
to some really awsome people. On the other hand, Im so ready to leave,
and so ready to start a life where my long term goals can be
accomplished. I used to think, Im going to go to college and be able to
be who ever I want to be. Now..Im going to college with the attitude
that I AM KATHRYN, THIS IS ME..and I going to college. Its so
exillerating. So exciting. Im not scared, im ready. Im going to miss so
many good friends though. At the beginning of the summer I was nervous
and anxious, but I made some AMAZING friends. AMAZING!! Who would have
thought??!?! Im more confident now. Im very sure of myself and I
think thats important. Thinking back though..it was the small things
that did it. It was Tyler and his cocky awsome ways. Liam and his humor
and steady hand and Emma because she was always there for me. I did
more that I thought I could and made more friends than Ive had for
years. Tricia, MeganR, MeganL, Carl, Rinat, Jess. Oh god..so many good
nights and SO many inside jokes. I cant quite explain how happy,
genually happy I am these days. Ive worked so hard to
have no regrets and this summer I can say that I have no
regrets. Music is like a pathway to a whole new soul. LOL..inward
singing. Can you spell Ketchup?? KUP??! LOL. Im trying my
hardest to make this summer stretch out, but its zooming past
me at breakneck speed. My last entry was and is still perfect
about how i feel right now. As I go about my life, im going to run
into some amazing people..north stars..and they are goign to lead me on
my way. Each north star shining something different and new for
me..eventually leading to that perfection. Im not in a dream
world..I know a eutopia is impossible, but right now I would swear Im
living in one. Im so excited right now that I cant possibly think
of sleeping. Part of me wonders where Im going to end up...all
those "what ifs", but Mike was right. What if I spend my
whole life "what if" "what if" "what if?!?!?" WTF!!? I
gotta live! I gotta live it! Screw the what ifs! I wont spend my
whole life worrying. Im so chill these days and very easy
going. Happier. :) Im losing my room in a few days, "losing"
it to my little sister, but I dont see it like that anymore.
Im not losing it..not at all. Im gaining independence and so
is Maggie. September is going to be different for everyone I
know. Changes are hitting left and right and I LOVE THEM
ALL. For the first time, I realize..I can handle this. SHIT. I can
more than handle this. Scott, I dont even know if youll read this,
but thank you so much. The short conversation online that we had really
really made things better for me. Goodluck with the gf! I wish you the
best.
"I dont need you to worry for me, cuz Im alright." -Billy Joel
I wish I had something new and different to say. I wish I had
something that has never been said before. I wish I could express
myself better. But guess what..right this second. I cant and thats OK.
Its suprising, but "I love ya" is now a common phrase. I know Im this
good because of my friends. I know that Im doing well because Ive got
friends that stay by my side. I know how much you all bend over
backwards for me and I couldnt be more appreciated. I know at one point
in time we decided that "love" was over used, but I honestly love you
all. My friends. I love my friends. I cant wait to visit you all at
college and oh god.. I gotta find myself a FISH..lol, or have I
already? ;) Im sitting here staring at my calendar realizing how soon
my life is about to take another twist. I leave in exactly one week.
ONE WEEK!?! Europe here I come. Hallo! Guttenmorgen und danke fur die
liebe! Im excited for europe, Im excited to come home, see my friends
one last time, Im exicted to go to college and then Ill be 19. :)
19...I feel so old.
My favorite quotes from this summer are mostly with tricia and emma.
But then there are the ones from the Megans..lol and then you cant
forget Liam's one liners. I will never regard a pick up line the same ever
again. "peanuts on your sundae!?!?" Im going to miss YoursTruly, SO
MUCH. Ive come to really love the staff up there. Waitress by winter
break? *crosses fingers* Would probobly help the financial issue that
comes along with paying for any college experience. LOL, and I finally
got the highway system around here figured out. After driving to shaker
and euclid and geauga and the middle of NO WHERE. I got it! Woohoo!!!
Could it have taken me any longer? Ive gotten 2 amazing compliments in
one week. LOL and a third one tonight.
For right now..I got this down pat! |
